It’s official… I hate my college.

I hate the way things are done here, I hate the way they run this place and I hate the fact that I have to come here 5 days a week and see precious days of my life waste away into nothingness. I hate the fact that I always have to do some crappy work which neither excites me, nor thrills me, just makes me let out a huge, audible sigh. I hate the fact that sometimes, I see no target in front of me, no finishing line ahead of me.

But the flip side of this is that I’m also proud of being here… Maybe this wasn’t what I was expecting when I stepped into this place a year and a half back… Maybe this wasn’t what I had in mind when they told me “the college you’re going to go to is among the top 15 colleges of India”… But the fact is that I am proud of being here coz what I‘ve got today, is something that most parents would give loads of money (you know what I mean ;)) to let their children have; is something that most students work tirelessly towards for two long years… And if this is what India has to offer as “one of its best colleges”, then so be it. I’m not going to grumble my way through these 4 years… or, atleast that’s what I tell myself everyday:-/

So, here’s to another bout of optimism (though this may be because the holidays have just started and I’m getting my cheeriness back at the prospect of staying home and doing what I love everyday)… Here’s hoping that my sincere efforts to fall in love once again with this place like I did a year and a half back do bear fruit (coz of late I’ve gotten really bored calling this place names along with the rest of my friends :P and I do want my stay here to be a lot more enjoyable:))

P.S:
I think I owe everybody an explanation as to why I wrote this post. Well here it is… I got my grades a few days back and they were horrible…though not quite as horrible as some of the things the teachers did. Without taking any names (of the teachers or the benefitting students), I’ll give a brief overview of what all happened. In one subject, some students were given A’s even though they deserved mangy-looking C’s and hence, some of us deserving A’s had to be content with B’s and those deserving B’s had to be content with C’s. In another subject, promises made earlier regarding marking in quizzes were broken at the last moment (I can’t elaborate on this right now, it’s a long story). In yet another subject, marks were deducted for no reason at all and even then when we just made it to the cut-off for the much-coveted A-grade in the stupid subject, we were handed a B… coz they said, had we got ½ a mark more, we would have gotten an A, but no, ½ a mark less couldn’t be adjusted, sorry…

To top it all, I was the least lucky in my lab practical exam… got the worst experiment of the lot…had to perform that while the others sniggered… I don’t blame anyone for this though… Somebody had to get that experiment and I did... Just my luck…