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Still trapped in the tangled web of her destiny… Still trying to balance emotions; assuage hurt egos and frayed tempers. Still trying to resolve situations that were not of her creation. Still trying to balance all sides of all metaphorical relationship equations. Still trying to keep everyone else happy and still trying to find her own happiness in the happiness of those she loved. Continually feeling more and more helpless, knowing there was going to be no respite, save one… The final *********

Author's Note: These few lines are actually part of a long story that I've written. But after penning down the first draft, I realized that the story was soooo close to my heart that I couldn’t bear even the thought of anyone debating or even discussing anything in the story. So, while the story stays with me for now, I let these few lines find their way onto my blog :) BTW, anyone who attempts to judge the content or central idea of the story through these lines is fooling himself :p The story is NOT related to women at all. It's a true masterpiece, a work of art, something even I'm proud of(which is hard, considering I'm not easily impressed ;) :D )...

Yay :)

Got a call yesterday from a very close and dear friend who's only geographically far away… :)

She's one of the few true friends that I have and even though we don't get time to hang out together or even talk for weeks at a stretch(it's mostly my fault, my commitments are endless :p), I know that if I need some advice, a true opinion on something, a long girly gossip session ;), or just simple chit-chat about nothing in particular, she'll be just a phone call away. And I never have to think about what to say to her, I can simply talk about the next thing that comes to my mind.

There are very few people in the world who truly understand me(even though almost all people reading this post will think they fit the bill :p :D ). The friend I'm talking about is one of those few. And it's always nice to know and be reminded of the fact that she cares. And if you're reading this, thanks for everything :) :) :)

A Brand New Start :)

"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending."

And as I make a fresh new start, I vow that I will give it ALL I have and make it a success...

DESPAIRINGLY IN DISBELIEF...

It was his decision to come close
His decision to go away...
His decision to make me his world
And his decision to push me to its periphery...

Only decision I ever made was...
That while it isn't going to be possible for me to let go of this relation
I'm not going to be a part of any new relation ever again...

Coz it's the same with everyone here...
The more you invest into them,
The more they're going to use it against you some day...
And even if they don't today...
They sure as hell will tomorrow.

Now I'm going to act like I 'forgive & forget'
Even though it's never going to be possible to forget what you said
I'll wait for you... till eternity...
Coz I invested in the relationship
I'm not sure whether you ever did
Whether you truly loved me
Or whether it was all one big lie...
But still, I'll wait for you... till eternity...

Coz to be loved by someone who you love
Is something only few are fortunate enough to have...
And I have long reconciled myself to the fact
That in this life,
That fortune is something that I'm never going to have.

An oversimplification, perhaps... :p

" I think everything you do should make you happy, it's really that simple, otherwise why are you doing it? "

-Anoushka Shankar

EASY WAY OUT...

Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows... I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show...
To letting you know...
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out...

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go...

Night after night
I hear myself sayin'
Why can't this feeling just fade away?
There's no one like you...
You speak to my heart...
I'm too shy to ask...
I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out...
-West Life

HIS Blessed One

Knowledge of 'psychology' is the single most biggest and most important knowledge in the world... Sometimes I wish I'd gone by my instinct and taken that up as one of my subjects while I still had the chance... Maybe I would've learnt a lot of things sooner and in a lesser painful way than I have now by hit-and-trial... Maybe that would've even taught me to look at things in a more impersonal way, to not be much affected by them, rather to take care of them in a more scientific manner... But maybe, that would've taken all the sensitivity out of me... coz maybe then, I would've looked at people merely as subjects -- to be studied -- and not as humans - to be understood and appreciated.

Whatever happens, happens for the best... I have always been a firm believer of this... More than anything else, the fact that nothing can happen to me without HIS knowledge keeps me going... HE will take care of me and all those who I care about... I know this... coz I'm His Blessed One...