A Brand New Start :)

"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending."

And as I make a fresh new start, I vow that I will give it ALL I have and make it a success...

DESPAIRINGLY IN DISBELIEF...

It was his decision to come close
His decision to go away...
His decision to make me his world
And his decision to push me to its periphery...

Only decision I ever made was...
That while it isn't going to be possible for me to let go of this relation
I'm not going to be a part of any new relation ever again...

Coz it's the same with everyone here...
The more you invest into them,
The more they're going to use it against you some day...
And even if they don't today...
They sure as hell will tomorrow.

Now I'm going to act like I 'forgive & forget'
Even though it's never going to be possible to forget what you said
I'll wait for you... till eternity...
Coz I invested in the relationship
I'm not sure whether you ever did
Whether you truly loved me
Or whether it was all one big lie...
But still, I'll wait for you... till eternity...

Coz to be loved by someone who you love
Is something only few are fortunate enough to have...
And I have long reconciled myself to the fact
That in this life,
That fortune is something that I'm never going to have.

An oversimplification, perhaps... :p

" I think everything you do should make you happy, it's really that simple, otherwise why are you doing it? "

-Anoushka Shankar

EASY WAY OUT...

Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows... I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show...
To letting you know...
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out...

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go...

Night after night
I hear myself sayin'
Why can't this feeling just fade away?
There's no one like you...
You speak to my heart...
I'm too shy to ask...
I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out...
-West Life

HIS Blessed One

Knowledge of 'psychology' is the single most biggest and most important knowledge in the world... Sometimes I wish I'd gone by my instinct and taken that up as one of my subjects while I still had the chance... Maybe I would've learnt a lot of things sooner and in a lesser painful way than I have now by hit-and-trial... Maybe that would've even taught me to look at things in a more impersonal way, to not be much affected by them, rather to take care of them in a more scientific manner... But maybe, that would've taken all the sensitivity out of me... coz maybe then, I would've looked at people merely as subjects -- to be studied -- and not as humans - to be understood and appreciated.

Whatever happens, happens for the best... I have always been a firm believer of this... More than anything else, the fact that nothing can happen to me without HIS knowledge keeps me going... HE will take care of me and all those who I care about... I know this... coz I'm His Blessed One...

ORIENTAL LADIES

Took me almost 27 months to complete, but now that it's done, I realise it s been worth all the effort... Take a look at the Oriental Ladies... :) :)

Mind you, the whole thing is HUGE and the photograph has been taken from quite a distance so as to get all of it in the frame... So, i guess you'll be missing out on a few details but I sure hope you get a general idea of my masterpiece... ;) ;)

BLIND IN LOVE

When you are in love... Your heart starts to feel like an overcrowded lifeboat... You throw your pride out to keep it afloat... And your self-respect and your independence... And after a while you start throwing out people you trusted... i.e. your friends and everyone you used to know...And it's still not enough... The lifeboat is still sinking and you know its going to take you down with it...

- Gregory David Roberts

(SHANTARAM)